I didn't do much but I'm tired
Sometimes I get surprised that I get tired by doing the most trivial thing. This week I really didn't do much, I did some little paperwork and went to a couple of cultural activities in my city. I only did that and I'm here in my room all day because I'm just too tired and I don't want to go out. I was planning to go out today too but I simply didn't have the energy to do it.
This used to happen to me often when I was in school, the weekends were days to recover all the energy I've lost during the week, but I think this was kinda justified because I was doing real important projects, talking to people and being outside for a long time. Now that I'm neither working or studying I feel lazy and guilty for being so.
People say to me that I deserve time to let myself rest but these are words that are hard for me to accept. I want to keep going, my mind wants to keep going but at the same time my body doesn't. My body it's yelling at me "Hey! I'm still tired, I need to rest!" and I keep ignoring it until I can't do anything, like how I canceled my plans to go out this weekend.
I talked about it in a post before, I like to take challenges that are maybe too big for me. I said I'm trying to balance my life and live taking more care of myself but in real life practice it's difficult to do. At least I'm conscious of this and I'm tring to make a change, even if I take very tiny steps, I'm still moving right? I want to believe that.