I have to always create
Since I can remember I've always been creating things. I was thinking on writing about the first thing I created, but then I realized that this is hard to know as it could be the tiniest like a scribble in a piece of paper. Probably my first creation was the result of an assignment at kindergarten of which I have zero memories, so I thought of something else, the first thing I can remember.
What came to my mind are those drawings on my old sketchbook, I had one in particular that I was very proud at the time, It brought me a lot of joy drawing there. I'd put so much effort in every drawing, hours, just like I still do today. Those weren't by any means great drawings, it had bad proportions: eyes too big, head too small, short legs, but I'd be so focused adding details that the time would run away like magic, one page could rob me the entire evening. Creations were (are) valuable to me, and as a kid, I didn't care about doing perfect lines or a masterpiece, I just wanted to pass the time and have fun.
Creating started as a way of having fun, distracting myself from the pass of time. As an introverted kid, It was nice to have activities where I didn't need anyone, I could create things by myself in the comfort of my room. Aside from drawing, growing up I found more and more ways to create and slowly, creating became something more: expression and solutions. I started to create for those two more reasons, more in detail, for artistic expression or to solve practical daily life problems.
When a little problem arrives I now think: how can I fix it?, What can I create to fix it?, that's how I made my silly extension for example. On the other side, when I have something in my mind, a strong thought I feel I have to get out I'd think: How can I express it?, communicate it? I have many creative outputs right now, but I think that my go-to was always writing.
These days creating for me is a need, I have to always create. I like the sense of achievement, I like having a project to look forward because is exciting to think how the project would grow and the activities I'll do in the next days: " Oh! tomorrow I'll finish this part and then I'll go to buy some of this so I can finished it during the weekend".
For me, is special how you can slowly build something from nothing with your own hands and see it change and evolve. You can tweak it, erase it and go back again, it could be a long process but in the end it appears in front of you: a creation, unique and valuable from all the time you put into it. I like that the things I make reflect the effort and not always end up perfectly as I plan it, it shows its mistakes and I found that charming.
When I'm not creating I don't have that emotion and life is just simple, a little plain. I can get along those times but I always miss creating so I go back to it as soon as a small punch of inspiration strikes me, or boredom is too unbearable, whatever happens first.